Why?

1. My godfather died a few weeks ago, and it's still tearing me apart. I still cry at night.

2. I haven't had recuperative sleep in months. Sure, sleep. Not real, real good sleep that people really need. I've just been closing my eyes basically for the past few months.

3. I've totally given up binging like hell in an attempt to gain weight. (1) I'm getting sick and tired of being disappointed whenever I try to see if I've made progress, (2) something with my stomach is getting screwy, I can't eat as much without feeling sick, (3) I just want to eat whenever I want, whatever I want, (4) there's no real use in it anymore because I'm inherently like this, I have the body of my mother, and it's not going to change.

4. I've had emotional problems for a long time now. I think it's becoming a real super problem now.